I never knew that this would be possible for me. Being diagnosed with both borderline personality disorder and bipolar disorder is nothing but hell for me. People say that both BPD and bipolar are somewhat the same. Well, guess what? They are most certainly not. From what I learned from my psychiatrist is that borderline personality disorder is a mood disorder that causes erratic changes in my moods, whereas bipolar disorder is when I suffer cyclic periods of mania and depression at certain times. It wasn’t until less than a year ago that it was possible to be diagnosed with both BPD and bipolar. Ever since then, my world has turned upside down. When I was 22, I was first diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. From my past experiences, I suffer from drastic mood changes. I was full of joy and then sadness seconds later. What I suffer from the most is anger. Everything around me makes me angry, and that is when I get triggered most of the time. When I see couples
My Morbid Mania: My Bipolar Story by Nix-Achlys, literature
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My Morbid Mania: My Bipolar Story
Bear with me. I’m not even sure where to begin with this. I’m basically writing this past my bedtime because I just couldn’t stop thinking about something; my thoughts are literally racing. Somehow, I just cannot go to sleep, and I feel as if I may never sleep at all. But this is good timing to explain why I just cannot sleep, why my thoughts are racing, and why I just cannot seem to stop typing so vigorously. It all started when I was a young teenager. It was junior high school, aka, the years of endless torment and victimization. That was when I started to feel different than before when I was a child. That was when I first learned about my new-found hostility. I get angry all the time just because I hated all my classmates throughout those years. I hate hearing people talk, sing, and even laugh. I hated everything there was when I first entered middle school. To be honest, I don’t remember much what happened in those three torturing years of growing up, dealing with
Mania It’s just an ordinary early afternoon day for the Hyper Force. Nothing but the cloudless sunshine in the skies and all the people around them doing their daily routines around the streets. Sprx, Otto, Antauri, and Gibson are all strolling together after their trip from a fast-food restaurant; Sprx and Otto both ordered burgers, fries, and soda while Antauri and Gibson both ordered salads and juice. As they held on to their own paper takeout bags and drinking cups on their way home, they were just having a conversation with one another, just some stereotypical guy-talk. “And then I said,” Sprx says to the others, “’Kid, you can never pull off that milk crate challenge on TikTok, stick to the cinnamon challenge!’” Otto laughs along with Sprx at the thought, but for both Antauri and Gibson, they don’t really find this amusing. Gibson takes a sip from his drink through a straw, “There’s nothing funny about those TikTok challenges, do